I will surely miss you my baby girl:(

Assalamualaikum..

Alhamdulillah I have safely arrived home with Hakim, Yusuf and bibik. The journey took more than 4 hours! We stopped at Temerloh so that I could take a nap. The eyes were drooping by then. rasanya mau batang mancis pun patah kalau letak kat mata tu..Alhamdulillah after 10 mins lega sikit and I started to drive all the way to Kerteh. Jem sat at the infamous Kemaman bridge- rugi 20 mins kot jalan slow sangat. Banyak kereta kat highway on both sides so tak lah bawa laju mana pun. max pun 130 kot bila tak perasan..:)..This is the first time i drove alone to kerteh since we moved here 14 years ago!



Tadi pagi, as early as 730 am we left our apt. heading towards UI@. Abang, Maya, Dhirah, Alang and me..we thot we were early but when we arrived, the cark park was already almost full! semangat betul. Abang said entah2 ada yang camping kat sini sebab dok jauh... ye lah tu... We walked towards Dewan Al Malik Faisal - the registration area for girls. Very well orgaized. Dhirah dpt no 1074...lama lah tu nak tunggu. But at about 830 ( 824 according to my phone:), dah mula panggil number 1000 -1100 untuk masuk ke dewan for registration. Puas lah jugak tunggu . Around 10 gitu Dhirah dah keluar happy nampaknya..


She told me...mak ada orang kenal Dhira kat dalam. Dia kata ni la dia ..Nadhirah N...terkejut Dhira. And she said the lady told her that she knows Dhira thru this blog! Wow...this is the 2nd time kena cam ni:). The first time, was when we were performing our saei, a lady came to say hi...ooo..ni maklang eh...:) and started to say my kids name one by one and pointing at each of them...terkezut gak tu..Anyway, thanks to the 'kakak' or 'adek' who had helped Dhira thru the registration tadi:)

Alhamdulillah urusan registration selesai and I saw that my baby girl was happy all the way. In fact she was so excited masa kemas2 barang nak masuk Uni ni...tapi when we entered her mahallah, muka Dhirah terus merah..al maklum, tak pernah lagi ada experience dok asrama. ramai2 sebilik...and kena tido kat atas pulak tu. Alang, maya and me did all the arranging of her things while she just stood still sebab tak tau nak kata apa. Kesian anak mak. Bila dapat tahu lepas registration seme dah boleh balik and has to come back by 6:00pm. so we took her home. Sempat jumpa Cikgu Milah yang tolong bawakan botol air Dhira...sian betul anak mak. She cried when we were on the way back. Tak mau masuk mak...dia kata...Mak pun apalagi..sama jugak laa..I told her that she is very lucky to have a place here. First Unimas, then dapat tukar sini..at least ada place. Some people tak ada langsung..Bila tengok anak manja macam ni rasa macam bersalah pulak sebab tak expose kan dia benda2 macam ni. Rasanya I am overprotective kat anak2 tapi I know all mothers are like me..kalau boleh you want to give the world to our anak2 kan...

I can still remember, masa I left my parents for the first time dulu..macam ni lah jugak keadaan nya. I was not strong. Mula2 nak pergi tu happy, tapi dah seminggu kot kat sana, tiap hari nangis ingat kat mak, and everytime I called, I did not have a voice to utter any words..macam tercekik kat kerongkong! hu hu!..Anyway that was almost 30 years ago, and now I am experiencing what my mom did when I left her to further my studies..lagi terok, with no one within reach! Tapi Alhamdulilah I made it:)


A short while ago, I called her and she sounded ok...tapi boleh feel that there is no single smile yet in her voice. Tapi mak doakan baby girl mak akan happy and berjaya untuk menempuh semuanya...Alang and Abah will always be around you kan...Call je Alang or Abah, I am sure they will be by your side!:)...I will miss having you golek2 at my bed when i am sitting bz with my RE..I surely will miss you very much:(